Sunday, June 18, 2006

my frnd killed herself!!!!

sorry for the hard hitting title.. i cant think of any other way of putting it!!!!!!!

shradda and i had known each other since we were kids..we used to do all the lil girly things like play barbie and house-house etc.. basically we were frnds coz both our dads went to the same Rotary Club...So I know her dad and mom and lil sis also...she was the vice-president of the annets club of which i was the president..she was at times cranky and also partly nutty... but in lil kids world all this hardly meant anything at all.. actually there were three of us.. bhavna and shradda and me..we are inseperable..both of them were a yr younger than me but i think that hardly made a diff..
anyways the yrs passed by and we went our different ways.. bhavana and i ended up in the same college and hence were on passing aquaintance with each other.. there was the occassional "how is shradda doing??" but that was about it all.. Our dad's met more often than us.. and each was showing off his daughther's achievements.. I am an engineer working with an MNC and shraddha was an actress!! yeah a couple of movies and a whole lot of TV serials!!!

and then out of the blue my dad calls me

dad: have u hrd abt shraddha or read abt her in the papers
me: no pa, wat happened??
dad: She hung herself in her room
me:did she die??
dad:yeah, ur mom and i went and saw her parents the next day!!!

and then nothing happened for a while..after abt 2 days it sunk in..there was this perfectly normal grl and out of the blue she kills herself.. wat caused this to happen??? wat pressure did she have??? maybe the exposure we have today leads us to have stranger and stranger thoughts??? wat sort of problems wud cause a person to hang herself from her fan leaving a note saying "Sorry Dad, i wasnt a gud daughter"
Damn rite Shradda.. u arent a gud daughter..if u really were a gud daughter as a normal 21 yr old u wud have gone to ur mom or dad with ur problems and there is nothin tat they cant solve for u!!!!!!!!!!! i am sorry that u had to resort to such a drastic step.. A coward wud do something like this.. a truely brave person wud stand up and face the world..tat is wat u shud have done..or come to one of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shradda has been replaced by other actress in her serials and rumor has it that she suffered from depression.. maybe she was... u put a 18-19 yr old grl to act and expose her to the harsh world and expect to her survive it.. i guess not.. in more ways than one i am thankful for the protected environment i living in...

i am jus mad at shradda for doing wat she did.. so apologies to others who think i am being harsh or stuff..
anyways love u babe and u made my childhood a lil more memorable for me..

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